Being an identical twin is an amazing gift of unconditional love.

No one can understand just how earth shattering standing on the brink of losing one's twin is to experience...
I vividly remember having a scary feeling; one I had not had before. My intuition had kicked into overdrive, though I couldn't explain why.
I was unable to sleep that night, I called, I texted, I called the friend that she was living with, I heard nothing, I called the police station, the hospital, still nothing. Only hours before we had been out together. I was going to ride home with her that night, but I was tired and decided to go home. I would later learn that my decision saved my life.

I laid down waiting for Shi and eventually dosed off around 5:00 a.m. when I heard a knock at the door... I rushed to it in hopes that it was my sister only to find before me a detective and a police officer! I looked at them, my heart pounding with fear.

They asked “Do you know a Shi Death?" (well her full name).

"Yes!!!!“

They looked at each other and said, "We thought so you two look very alike."

They had worried faces,and I just thought please God not again, I had my first love die and the police deliver me the news, and I felt post-traumatic.
My knees wanted to buckle, my heart pounded at the speed of lightning as it fell into the pits of my stomach awaiting the message.

They said, “Your sister has been involved in an automobile accident, we will explain the situation to you in detail later. Right now, we need for you to get dressed and go to the Emergency Room immediately, but, safely."

I replied, "OKAY!" Slammed the door ran to my room frantically grabbed my "Love and Love people" hoodie, jeans, socks, boots…

Keys...need Keys…breathing heavily, I think I may have been having an asthma attack as I ran to my car, got in, and started taking deep breaths.
I parked in the hospital parking lot, and went in as calmly as I possibly could given the situation.

When I walked up to the desk I asked about her and they said “WHO?"
"Oh she must be our Jane Doe!"

" Yeah it’s our Jane Doe because you look just like her."

My stomach started cramping in knots; it felt like someone shoved a dagger in me and twisted it.
"Are you alright?" they ask,

"Never mind me! PLEASE tell me how is she? "

"We don't know just yet. Sshe is in surgery. The surgeon will come out and talk to you.
In the mean time we need some information...and while you wait you may notify close family and friends."

I just thought GOD, I have just gone to HELL, is this Hell right here, right now?
This is what a real life NIGHTMARE really is.

So I waited, I couldn’t sit so I paced back and forth...till my feet where throbbing, I drank water to quench the overpowering urge to flip out and sob...

I waited, and waited, and waited, alone in my Hell...I called people, no one answered
because it was 6:00 a.m. I texted…I’m sure the messages I left where horrifying.

Finally the surgeon came over to me and said that shi had made it out of surgery fine,
and that they were now moving her to I.C.U.

"Is she going to make it?"

"Is she going to be alright?"
He pinched his lips, furrowed his eye brows and said...
“Well we do not know that yet. Your sister has suffered extensive injuries”.
I asked him what my sister’s injuries are? How is her Spine? Her mind?

"We will have to wait and see."

He told me I needed to go to I.C.U, but I had no idea how to get there. He pointed, and was going to rush off, when he looked down at my hoddie and read LOVE and LOVE people, then looked back into my eyes and offered to walk me half way.

"Okay thank you very much," I replied.

I paced in the I.C.U halls for another 5 hrs - the longest 5 hours of my life - until I was able to see my twin sister.

My mother, her friend, my sister’s friend that she had been living with finally arrived.

Seeing her, finally, her fragile and unconscious body...was beyond devastating, beyond heartwrenching, beyond painful.

The Earth felt as if it had opened around me, the stars had been stolen from the night sky,time ceased to exist, and when I held her hand and I knew she was going to live through this tragedy. I knew she would be fine, but that she had a long and difficult journey awaiting her, and if that anyone could make it; it would be Shi.

She is the toughest angel I know.

I have faith in this…..and in my intuition.

Thank you to all of you for your many blessings, for sending you’re healing kinetic energy through prayers, thoughts and well wishes; for imagining the best outcome, for having faith, and for hoping and dreaming the best.

Shi. asked me to let you all know she loves you and she thanks you for all the prayers, for offering to help, and for being here for her and for me in our time of need. You have given us immeasurable strength as we face this difficult time.

Thank you, Thank you, and many blessings and love to you all.

Sincerely,

Lynda